Today went by rather fast. It involved a lot of crying and laughing and conversation between old friends and the forging of new ones. Yearbook day is always like this for me. I spent it with Rachel, my bffl, of course, because she is now on yearbook staff. And Yearbook Adviser didn’t get too angry. Yearbook day is something I look forward to all year, no matter how much I complain about the stress yearbook sometimes causes. I feel really calm, like all is right in my world at the moment.
Even though I know next week brings hard decisions and a hell of a boring time. It means hanging out in the yearbook room all the time, which I love doing anyway. I need to pack that fridge with some Dr. Pepper, while I’m thinking about it, because I know I’ll forget. Funny thing is, I can write “streams of consciousness” on my blog without effort, but my teacher tells us to write like that and I look at my paper like it’s an alien from Mars. It’s dumb.
I’m trying not to let it get me down. There are so many people telling me so many things and trying to pull me in so many different directions. It’s almost like white noise. I just want to sit down and scream, “Now, hold up a freaking second!…What did you say?” Because I’m confused. I can’t handle so many different opinions. I just can’t weight things. It’s one of my flaws. Speaking of flaws, I forgot to tell someone something…I was watching a show the other day and someone said something that was so utterly true that it floored me:
“You like someone for their good qualities.
But you love them for their faults.”
But, in my case, the faults of the one I love are too much for this fifteen year old heart to take. So, like I said, big decisions next week. Quick post today, because I won’t have time for a while. Enjoy life, and don’t let the world get you down.
