Don’t Let It Get You Down

Today went by rather fast.  It involved a lot of crying and laughing and conversation between old friends and the forging of new ones.  Yearbook day is always like this for me.  I spent it with Rachel, my bffl, of course, because she is now on yearbook staff.  And Yearbook Adviser didn’t get too angry.  Yearbook day is something I look forward to all year, no matter how much I complain about the stress yearbook sometimes causes.  I feel really calm, like all is right in my world at the moment.

Even though I know next week brings hard decisions and a hell of a boring time.  It means hanging out in the yearbook room all the time, which I love doing anyway.  I need to pack that fridge with some Dr. Pepper, while I’m thinking about it, because I know I’ll forget.  Funny thing is, I can write “streams of consciousness” on my blog without effort, but my teacher tells us to write like that and I look at my paper like it’s an alien from Mars.  It’s dumb. 

I’m trying not to let it get me down.  There are so many people telling me so many things and trying to pull me in so many different directions.  It’s almost like white noise.  I just want to sit down and scream, “Now, hold up a freaking second!…What did you say?” Because I’m confused.  I can’t handle so many different opinions.  I just can’t weight things.  It’s one of my flaws.  Speaking of flaws, I forgot to tell someone something…I was watching a show the other day and someone said something that was so utterly true that it floored me:

“You like someone for their good qualities.
But you love them for their faults.”

But, in my case, the faults of the one I love are too much for this fifteen year old heart to take.  So, like I said, big decisions next week.  Quick post today, because I won’t have time for a while.  Enjoy life, and don’t let the world get you down.

Fools and Kings

So, I was thinking about the United States on a general basis.  A few of my friends and I were talking about men and their association with the United States.  Since this country has been founded, the only people to ever take control are old white men.  Don’t you find that slightly ironic?  All this stuff about diversity and embracing the new in this country and one type of person can rule us.  But, the purpose of the title is a modern event and this question has been bothering me.  I have heard quite a few people call Bush a fool.  In this democratic society, where we choose the leaders, who is the fool: the king or the people who elected him?

Just some food for thought.  I am taking a little time out of the hour or so I have to work on my novel before my sister gets on to talk to people…Speaking of, I haven’t called Ramxpage.  I was waiting to see if Daniel had posted anything…still waiting.  But, whatever.  Today was a really good day.  RetroxFab was happy, Ramxpage was…okay–she was acting kind of wierd–and Daniel was happy, too.  So, you know.  Plus, it helped that I passed every single exam.  My lowest grade was a 73, but after that my lowest grade was a 92.  Oh yeah, I’m good. 

Speaking of grades, I have noticed that the norm for a lot of kids is like below average, and they don’t even care.  I mean, I’m not even talking about what won’t get you into college.  It’s more of a self pride thing for me when I am taking a class.  I absolutely do not take a class just to have a ‘freebie’.  I don’t work like that.  I want to make good grades in my classes–not because my parents would ground me if my grades were less than C’s–but because I’ll feel like crap if I don’t.  Everyone in my English class–besides the friends I have in there–doesn’t like me because I am making the highest grade–not a 100 by the way–and I think that’s really annoying.  I pay attention in the classes that I want to do good in.  Not that I don’t want to do good in every class, but if there’s a subject that I don’t really know if I’ll use, I’ll do what I have to in order to pass, but I won’t go out of my way to apply it.

There are…three classes now that I use: Yearbook, which is helping me get over my fear of talking to people I do not know, English, because it really is so helpful to study others’ writing, and Film Criticism, because I am a movie buff, and I can use that outside the classroom.  When I watch movies now, I unconciously find myself naming angles and explaining things to my siblings, because movies are like literature for the eyes.  They have their own system of tricks.  Where writers have hyperboles and alliteration and metaphors, directors have angles, shots, movement, color symbolism.  It’s great.

Music at the moment is “Your Song”, sung by Ewan Macgregor.  Yes, Moulin Rouge has taken over my life.  Pretty sad. 

Life, In General

Today, was, overall, a good day.  I didn’t have any problem getting through first, second, or third.  I love fourth period, because it is Yearbook, and that’s amazing, because the teach in that class loves me, because I am really good at it.  But, anyway, I usually end up having a downhill kind of day after that, because of certain people that I don’t want to talk about, and, no, Rampage, I am not referring to you.  But, as usual, fifth period lifted my spirits through the friggin’ roof, and that’s pretty good because my high school is like three stories tall.  But, anyway.  Emmy Rossum has a new Cd, you know her from Phantom of the Opera.  She is really pretty, and her voice is amazing, and I am actually listening to the cd now, because I want to know if it is any good before I buy it, and so far, I adore it, its very inspiring.  Vanessa Carlton’s new Cd also came out, and that’s pretty amazing, because I love her.  I usually only listen to the bands of like, death metal, and hard core, but lately, I’ve been back into my female singers.  I have all of Vanessa’s cd’s except her new one, and Emmy is quite similar to Vanessa.  I am reading Stray by Rachel Vincent, and that lady is pretty amazing, I can’t wait until her new book comes out!…Which won’t be for a while, because that book just came out a few months ago.   

School

Okay, so I definitely love school, like a total nerd. But, I do hate school because you have to get up so early. I love learning new things…if I’m awake enough to learn them. History is so interesting because you learn things that influence our societies today, and I find it awesome. I also love yearbook staff because you get to interact with your school, just like being on a sports team…and it looks really good on your college transcript.